I think I was defeated before I tried. Or maybe I am LOOKING for a reason not to try to actually get what I want and deserve. I don't know. I just know I am really falling fast for him and I am so scarred that he won't want me. This was bout of anxiety inducing blubbering was brought to you today by me sitting next to him on our break and seeing numerous texts to some girl. It was all I could do to not ask him about them. Or what happened with his last girlfriend. We are cool but not cool cool yet. Plus, we CANNOT get any time alone to bond!! Our damn co-worker ALWAYS waits for him! I don't know what to do. And it's making me crazy.