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"Shana's 2006 Birthday Week Part 1"

Countdowns:
14 days til Robin Thicke in concert

Song of the Day: Weak by SWV

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA & NEVAEH!

LONG ASS RAMBLING ENTRY AHEAD! You were warned!

So a lot of things have been going on lately. My brother moving back in and being the lazy ass moocher he is, the post office losing my Qwest bill, the After 7 concert, worked a shit load of hours, Halloween, and finally my birthday.

First, I did get to go see After 7! Awesome. (4 artists to hear live by the way.) Kevon Edmonds has a voice I will love til I die. While, they did sing with a track and didn't sing Kickin' It or Sprung On It, they sang Nights Like This and Can't Stop. Then afterwards I got to meet Kevon and take a picture. I cannot explain how cool that was. I was also promised a new album but Jodeci has been promising me that album for 10+ years now so I am not going to hold my breath.

So last Saturday (the 28th) was the last day of my 11 day straight sentence at work. About 930a, I was like fuck it and decided to leave at 415p. My hand was hurting and I knew if I stayed I would have gotten a damn headache. Plus, I needed to get ready for Amanda & Carlos's party. Those were some fun ass parties. I love my friends. At Amanda's she was having everyone bob for liquor. That was some funny shit. We all looked so cute too. No really. Go see at my new picture page since Yahoo Photos is now the most fucking stupidest site. (http://s140.photobucket.com/albums/r2/smileyqueen114/). And then Janet showed up!! Yay! I hadn't seen her in over a year and she hasn't changed. So 11p rolls around and Rosie hasn't shown up. I was really bummed about that but it was so time to head over to Carlos's. So Tracey and I get there and of course everyone has a good buzz going. Then, I see Shaun and I have to go feel him up. He had grapefruits for boobs! It was funny. Everyone had really cool costumes. Tracey took me over but left about 2a to go be with The Ass. Whatever though. Kai said she would take me home and it didn't matter because I didn't have to go to work the next day! Woo hoo! So we stayed til she sobered up which was about 330a. So about then we all get hungry and go hit up Whataburger. I had the BEST Breakfast Burrito ever. It was so good. Then we drop off Kai's Grey Area (hehe) and we talk til we get to my house at about 515a. It was almost like I was cool again. *Sniff, sniff* I miss my old life.

So Tuesday FINALLY gets here and it is going by SO FUCKING SLOW. So slow I just want to slit my wrists. And it didn't help being the last day of the month and I had to walk all over the place wearing the fucking big shoes again. Oh well. They took my picture for the Halloween Costume contest and yay, I won. And then at 558p when I turned my box off because I had to give people some stuff to finish, I just got hella giddy and happy. I turned to Mary and said, "In 2 minutes, I will be off for FIVE wonderful days. I am so happy right now!" She started laughing at me but I didn't give a fuck. So I got off and Kai picked me up so we could celebrate Suns season starting and watch the game. I was in a hella good mood. We got some food and went back to her house. 3 hours later and full as hell, my mood is full on cranky. Fucking Lakers. Fucking Suns too for blowing my 19 point lead. I CANNOT have a repeat of last season. My body can't handle any more stress.

That was alright because the next night we took our frustations out on that OTHER craptastic team from LA. Fuck the Clippers. And especially that alien Sam Cassel and traitor Tim Thomas. Me and Kai got fries and that was all that mattered. lol. (I should explain. When the Suns win, the crowd gets free fries from McDonalds. It's awesome!) Now that I think about it the Suns could have lost (well not really but still) and this would have made it all better. I love my team!

Thursday was kind of a bad day. For as long as I can remember I have always been ok being by myself. But that hasn't been the case lately and I just noticed I do better when I am not by myself. And when I don’t have time to think. So maybe that’s why I worked all them hours recently so willingly. At work I don’t have time to think about how much things suck and how the littlest thing can start me crying. Someone asked me why I don’t talk about it. I can but I don’t. Everyone I can (want to) talk to has their own things going on and I don’t want to be another burden in their mix. And the other people I could talk to I couldn't (wouldn't) because we aren’t that close and I know I am just another reminder of her and how she is gone. I couldn’t do that to them. Not when I know what their pain is like. So I keep to myself for the most part. It’s caused me to become recently clingy though. And if I can’t find anyone to do stuff with, I shop. Which I have been doing a lot of. So I couldn’t find anyone to go the fair with and I was kinda sad about that. I thought about going by myself for a minute but I knew the second I smelled the food or saw the picture booths I would have started crying. The fair being here (and Fab's visit) are probably why Ida has been on my mind so much. With the exception of last year, every year since I was 16 I celebrated my birthday (or started celebrating early) with her and/or Faby. And with neither of them here, it just made me sad and miss them and all of us being together. And that's what it is. I miss us. And it makes me so mad and sad and a million other emotions that I can't have that any more.
Well with that, I decided I wanted my computer. I went and bought me a laptop!! It's so pretty!! I just went to Best Buy and was like "Frank (the computer dude who helped me) what should I look for and how do I get financing?" Well, he let me know what was what and then helped me get a Best Buy credit card. Best Buy has NO IDEA of what they have done but I can be good. I have needed a new computer for awhile now and now I have it. Happy Early Birthday to me. Too bad I haven't even turned it on though. I have been TRYING to clean up but yeah...it's not working.

I really didn't get any sleep when I was off. Friday was the perfect example of that. I went to bed at 430a and had to get up at 845a to get Justin Timberbitch tickets. Stupid fan club presale. I stayed up awhile longer because KISS was having their own presale starting at 10a and I wanted to see what tickets they had. Well theirs sucked. But oh well. I stayed up til almost 1130a. I was going to try to go to the Butterfly exhibit at the Garden but yeah. I didn't wake up til 215p to call Kai so that was scrapped. I felt bad also because I was going to take Whitney with us and it was twice I cancelled on her. Oh well. I'll make it up to her. So instead I got ready for the Suns game with Kai, Michelle, & Carissa. First though, The GQ was a hungry bitch. I wanted Fridays! So Kai, Michelle, & I hit up TGIFridays. That was good eating. We then get to the arena and meet up with Carissa and get to our seats. Nothing makes me want to start dieting than the seats at AWA. I sat 9 sections over less than 48 hours earlier with NO PROBLEM but then my ass can't even get into the seat? Errgg... Anyways, I was highly amused by Michelle & Carissa's Steve Nash love and their commentary. Even with his Flock of Seagulls hair. It was funny also that they are all in love with him but yet Kai and I were both in Steve Nash attire. It was fun. UNTIL THEY FUCKING LOST!! TO THE FUCKING UTAH JAZZ!! Errgg. I WANT to stop going for my birthday but I can't. Damn you Phoenix Suns.

After that Kai and I went to NEXT club in Scottsdale for my friend Sharan's Bachlorette party. I had never been there so I didn't know what to expect. Well, it would have been ok had the DJ not sucked ass and there had not been so much ghetto fabulous everywhere. Really. Does one NEED to wear a puffy FUR LINED vest at the club? NO! And then I went to the bathroom and there is this bitch at the sink, with ALL her weed out, rolling her blunt!! WTF?? Oh! And then I went to wash my hands and this girl is talking another girl asking her if her hair is real. OK... So the girl tells her yeah, it's real. Then she is telling her hair is so fucking awesome and that she should sell her shit for like $10 a strand! What the hell? But other than that, it was fun. Besides Kai and myself, the party was all of Sharan's family that I have worked with so that was fun. Them bitches are funny. Sharan was so cute in her light up penis veil. And her drunk sister Cheryl was FUNNY. And we found out she knows our friend Frankie!! It's crazy because this is the second time one of my co-workers knows who Frankie is. Then Sharan's cousin Lisa busts out the penis balloons and that was some crazy shit. They all left hella early because one of their other uncles was getting married. We stayed a little while longer but then left about 1a. After that we hit up the Wal-Mart for my cake! Yay cake! I still want an ice cream cake though. lol.

So listening to the new Gwen song. It's.....interesting. Why the fuck is Gwen Stefani yodelling? That girl... I really wish she would stop being a Hollaback Girl and go back to being Just A Girl with her boys.

OK I need to go to bed now, so part 2 later. Stupid job.


	November 08, 2006 at 6:03 a.m. "Shana's 2006 Birthday Week Part 1" Countdowns: 14 days til Robin Thicke in concert Song of the Day: Weak by SWV HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA & NEVAEH! LONG ASS RAMBLING ENTRY AHEAD! You were warned! So a lot of things have been going on lately. My brother moving back in and being the lazy ass moocher he is, the post office losing my Qwest bill, the After 7 concert, worked a shit load of hours, Halloween, and finally my birthday. First, I did get to go see After 7! Awesome. (4 artists to hear live by the way.) Kevon Edmonds has a voice I will love til I die. While, they did sing with a track and didn't sing Kickin' It or Sprung On It, they sang Nights Like This and Can't Stop. Then afterwards I got to meet Kevon and take a picture. I cannot explain how cool that was. I was also promised a new album but Jodeci has been promising me that album for 10+ years now so I am not going to hold my breath. So last Saturday (the 28th) was the last day of my 11 day straight sentence at work. About 930a, I was like fuck it and decided to leave at 415p. My hand was hurting and I knew if I stayed I would have gotten a damn headache. Plus, I needed to get ready for Amanda & Carlos's party. Those were some fun ass parties. I love my friends. At Amanda's she was having everyone bob for liquor. That was some funny shit. We all looked so cute too. No really. Go see at my new picture page since Yahoo Photos is now the most fucking stupidest site. (http://s140.photobucket.com/albums/r2/smileyqueen114/). And then Janet showed up!! Yay! I hadn't seen her in over a year and she hasn't changed. So 11p rolls around and Rosie hasn't shown up. I was really bummed about that but it was so time to head over to Carlos's. So Tracey and I get there and of course everyone has a good buzz going. Then, I see Shaun and I have to go feel him up. He had grapefruits for boobs! It was funny. Everyone had really cool costumes. Tracey took me over but left about 2a to go be with The Ass. Whatever though. Kai said she would take me home and it didn't matter because I didn't have to go to work the next day! Woo hoo! So we stayed til she sobered up which was about 330a. So about then we all get hungry and go hit up Whataburger. I had the BEST Breakfast Burrito ever. It was so good. Then we drop off Kai's Grey Area (hehe) and we talk til we get to my house at about 515a. It was almost like I was cool again. Sniff, sniff I miss my old life. So Tuesday FINALLY gets here and it is going by SO FUCKING SLOW. So slow I just want to slit my wrists. And it didn't help being the last day of the month and I had to walk all over the place wearing the fucking big shoes again. Oh well. They took my picture for the Halloween Costume contest and yay, I won. And then at 558p when I turned my box off because I had to give people some stuff to finish, I just got hella giddy and happy. I turned to Mary and said, "In 2 minutes, I will be off for FIVE wonderful days. I am so happy right now!" She started laughing at me but I didn't give a fuck. So I got off and Kai picked me up so we could celebrate Suns season starting and watch the game. I was in a hella good mood. We got some food and went back to her house. 3 hours later and full as hell, my mood is full on cranky. Fucking Lakers. Fucking Suns too for blowing my 19 point lead. I CANNOT have a repeat of last season. My body can't handle any more stress. That was alright because the next night we took our frustations out on that OTHER craptastic team from LA. Fuck the Clippers. And especially that alien Sam Cassel and traitor Tim Thomas. Me and Kai got fries and that was all that mattered. lol. (I should explain. When the Suns win, the crowd gets free fries from McDonalds. It's awesome!) Now that I think about it the Suns could have lost (well not really but still) and this would have made it all better. I love my team! Thursday was kind of a bad day. For as long as I can remember I have always been ok being by myself. But that hasn't been the case lately and I just noticed I do better when I am not by myself. And when I don’t have time to think. So maybe that’s why I worked all them hours recently so willingly. At work I don’t have time to think about how much things suck and how the littlest thing can start me crying. Someone asked me why I don’t talk about it. I can but I don’t. Everyone I can (want to) talk to has their own things going on and I don’t want to be another burden in their mix. And the other people I could talk to I couldn't (wouldn't) because we aren’t that close and I know I am just another reminder of her and how she is gone. I couldn’t do that to them. Not when I know what their pain is like. So I keep to myself for the most part. It’s caused me to become recently clingy though. And if I can’t find anyone to do stuff with, I shop. Which I have been doing a lot of. So I couldn’t find anyone to go the fair with and I was kinda sad about that. I thought about going by myself for a minute but I knew the second I smelled the food or saw the picture booths I would have started crying. The fair being here (and Fab's visit) are probably why Ida has been on my mind so much. With the exception of last year, every year since I was 16 I celebrated my birthday (or started celebrating early) with her and/or Faby. And with neither of them here, it just made me sad and miss them and all of us being together. And that's what it is. I miss us. And it makes me so mad and sad and a million other emotions that I can't have that any more. Well with that, I decided I wanted my computer. I went and bought me a laptop!! It's so pretty!! I just went to Best Buy and was like "Frank (the computer dude who helped me) what should I look for and how do I get financing?" Well, he let me know what was what and then helped me get a Best Buy credit card. Best Buy has NO IDEA of what they have done but I can be good. I have needed a new computer for awhile now and now I have it. Happy Early Birthday to me. Too bad I haven't even turned it on though. I have been TRYING to clean up but yeah...it's not working. I really didn't get any sleep when I was off. Friday was the perfect example of that. I went to bed at 430a and had to get up at 845a to get Justin Timberbitch tickets. Stupid fan club presale. I stayed up awhile longer because KISS was having their own presale starting at 10a and I wanted to see what tickets they had. Well theirs sucked. But oh well. I stayed up til almost 1130a. I was going to try to go to the Butterfly exhibit at the Garden but yeah. I didn't wake up til 215p to call Kai so that was scrapped. I felt bad also because I was going to take Whitney with us and it was twice I cancelled on her. Oh well. I'll make it up to her. So instead I got ready for the Suns game with Kai, Michelle, & Carissa. First though, The GQ was a hungry bitch. I wanted Fridays! So Kai, Michelle, & I hit up TGIFridays. That was good eating. We then get to the arena and meet up with Carissa and get to our seats. Nothing makes me want to start dieting than the seats at AWA. I sat 9 sections over less than 48 hours earlier with NO PROBLEM but then my ass can't even get into the seat? Errgg... Anyways, I was highly amused by Michelle & Carissa's Steve Nash love and their commentary. Even with his Flock of Seagulls hair. It was funny also that they are all in love with him but yet Kai and I were both in Steve Nash attire. It was fun. UNTIL THEY FUCKING LOST!! TO THE FUCKING UTAH JAZZ!! Errgg. I WANT to stop going for my birthday but I can't. Damn you Phoenix Suns. After that Kai and I went to NEXT club in Scottsdale for my friend Sharan's Bachlorette party. I had never been there so I didn't know what to expect. Well, it would have been ok had the DJ not sucked ass and there had not been so much ghetto fabulous everywhere. Really. Does one NEED to wear a puffy FUR LINED vest at the club? NO! And then I went to the bathroom and there is this bitch at the sink, with ALL her weed out, rolling her blunt!! WTF?? Oh! And then I went to wash my hands and this girl is talking another girl asking her if her hair is real. OK... So the girl tells her yeah, it's real. Then she is telling her hair is so fucking awesome and that she should sell her shit for like $10 a strand! What the hell? But other than that, it was fun. Besides Kai and myself, the party was all of Sharan's family that I have worked with so that was fun. Them bitches are funny. Sharan was so cute in her light up penis veil. And her drunk sister Cheryl was FUNNY. And we found out she knows our friend Frankie!! It's crazy because this is the second time one of my co-workers knows who Frankie is. Then Sharan's cousin Lisa busts out the penis balloons and that was some crazy shit. They all left hella early because one of their other uncles was getting married. We stayed a little while longer but then left about 1a. After that we hit up the Wal-Mart for my cake! Yay cake! I still want an ice cream cake though. lol. So listening to the new Gwen song. It's.....interesting. Why the fuck is Gwen Stefani yodelling? That girl... I really wish she would stop being a Hollaback Girl and go back to being Just A Girl with her boys. OK I need to go to bed now, so part 2 later. Stupid job.