I have been trying to type out something for the past 15 minutes and it just doesn't sound like me. It just sounds like I am putting up a big front. Maybe I am though. I've been all over the place this week emotionally. I don't know if it's due to my money situation or work or the hormonal goodness of the birth control or the weather but I am usually not a crier or one to have trouble sleeping. The past two days have really hit me hard. And then today, this was in the paper (on Friday of all days) and all of sudden it was January and I just got sick to my stomach amd all of the memories just started coming to me. Then, I just became angry and sad and frustrated and so many other emotions I didn't know what to do BUT cry. Is this how you cope? Because if it is I am not really doing a good job.