To Robyn. Because you asked and care. Thank you. And also because I love thug appeal.

I haven't written because I am having a hard time putting my thoughts into words. It's not just here though. It's at work, in letters, in email, in everything. I guess the lack of sleep and headaches aren't helping things either but for the most part I've also been too tired when I can finally get to the computer. The Hellspot isn't helping with that of course but it does help take my mind of things for at least a little while. They have been surprising considerate and understanding though. (We'll see how long that lasts after the get my comments to THEM on my review. It was late & I WAS NOT a happy camper.)

It's strange though how through all of the bad and sadness comes good things. Maybe it's someone's way of helping you deal with all of the pain. I've never really doubt my friends but this has really shown me I never have to. I really didn't ask anyone for anything but they just knew. They showed up or called to help and/or be there without asking or saying anything. I've also been talking to Cindy more. I am really glad about that. She's been through so much herself.

But, to be honest, I don't know how I am. I guess OK but even that seems like it's not right. Things just come and go right now.